The Return....Not!

I'll start off with a log + thoughts. I originally sent all this to a friend, so TEXT are my comments, everything else is logs from elsewhere.

hmm, i almost went back to #JAR...there was a leaf channel on another server i was on, i joined it to see if it was real...it was, so i left
and now i joined on my server with a different nick through megatokyo...sakura aint on but nv2u is
and hkk is
meh, ill go back for a little while, see how it goes...heh
i somewhat dread when sakura comes in tho...understandably so i think
hmm, its past the time she should be getting on pretty much...guess i wont hear from her tonight...maybe thats a good thing. i was gonna apologize in pm for calling them/her assholes...tell them i was just hurt. i did in global, but only nv2u saw it...unless hkk reads the logs, but i pm'ed him too.
i dunno if ill be back or not...i DO wish things would go back to how they were tho...or at least, shed lift the restrictions...it feels weird...she didnt message me the whole time i was gone...yet were still "friends"...go figure eh?
speak of the devil...there she is -_-
haha
hey, sorry for calling yall assholes...i was just hurt :(
it's fine
this may be a bad time, but...do u still need more time or can the restrictions go bye bye? :P
more time please...
XD fine fine :P
haha well, im not gonna start any drama or anything...no need for that...just know that I am looking forward to the day we can enjoy a less restricted friendship :P
i dunno why, but for some reason i dont care....its like shes disgusted and distanced me so much that i dont care XD
hehe
I love rain... it's just that i'll be wet once I get to school
I *hate* rain. XD
At least snow is generally dry.
that was nasty
ewwwwwwwwwww
generally??
* Sakura gets slushies
Well, sometimes you get slush and stuff. But you don't really get wet from just walking in the snow until it melts...
So as long as you brush it off before you go inside, it's usually fine
sorry, i have a dirty mind now...moreso i mean....i blame john
XD
nii-chan hasn't been here for a while
nope, he left
why?
because we all did i think...me and sec and him
i probably wouldnt have come back except i randomly saw a leaf in megatokyo.com and im like "hmm...i better go back, even if i dont stay...leave on a better foot :P"
nobody asked why we left...then again, each of the 3 of us had our separate reasons...im thinking ill be an occasional visitor, if that
maybe more, i dunno...
I'm gone... later guys
Later Sakura
Stay dry...
* Nv2U tosses Sakura an umbrella
* Sakura starts singing 'rain rain go away...'
cya sakura...dunno when/if ill see you again, so *hugs*
* Sakura catches the umbrella
thank you!
later Ath
haha, she cares a lot if she never sees me again
but for some reason, i dont care much / at all
im beginning to wonder if sakura is there just so guys will talk to her and stuff...you know, cuz she cant really IRL or something...hmm
meh, doesnt matter...it is what it is (why does that sound like a mal quote? :P)
heh, at the very least i wont feel guilty anymore..even tho hkk hasnt responded, i got responses from 2/3...even tho i told them i was just hurt and i never got a "sorry for that" out of them...nv2u said he had me on ignore at the time
the more i think about it, the more im thinking i can live without said chatroom
i think i mayve found my new home...#crossplay on megatokyo.com
lol...as soon as sakura left, nv2u seems to be afk...haha, yeah i dunno if ill be back
ok, i left for the night
possibly forever
made a fairly dramatic exit
lemme bring up the log and paste
Jan 10 00:34:25 well im off...i dunno when/if ill be back...i got no hard feelings tho...my time has been fun. and should i not return, hope everyone does well...yall feel free to IM me if you want tho... kixs_108@hotmail.com (msn) or jupiter8788 (aim) or tax1p (yahoo). Yeah. Seems a bit dramatic, but heh...such is my way. /me hugs everyone. :)
Jan 10 00:35:02 oh and erm...tell sakura shes welcome to im me...if her restrictions will allow it ;P anyway, cyall later :)

Interesting no? Sakura seems to be up to her old tricks of "zomg i need more time to get over...whatever it is i have to get over" and stuff. I dunno, I'm thinking leaving was probably a good thing...and now I don't have that "I left calling them assholes" thing hovering over my head.

So, I guess that was it...perhaps never to return, I dunno. I really don't know if her "restrictions" will ever be lifted anyway...she doesnt realize it, but she's a good part of the reason why I left...not that she seemed to care. Glad to see everyone is well at least. I believe a change is in order, and for a change...epic words.

As this chapter of my life closes, so shall a new one open. May the new one be more joyful and less sorrowful than the last. May I correct my old mistakes to make a better life.

Ok, so much for the epic words. I think this marks a significant change in my life. I think I have been better with girls since I've met Sakura, and I should be able to increase that. I will never forget my time with her, or the chatroom...just like I've never forgotten my time with Kelsey and the gang.

So, feel free to leave comments and such :)